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Before you read, you have to know, I'm not English Speaker, but I'm going to try to write as good as possible.
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Psychiatry is not able to give an explanation of the origin of this desire, so deep by the feet, male feet in our case. Explanations are in fact, pseudo-scientific. In my personal experience I remember once when I was a child, I remove the shoes and something drew me to put one foot in the toilet, I did not do it, but was the first experience with the foot fetish, I felt a strange desire to put that part of my body in the dirt and I feel very good. This was the beginning of an orientation and determination of the sex object that would be installed for years in my mind and my emotions, in an obsessive way.
Later, fighting and wrestling with a friend, I feel eroticism, because we fighting barefoot and he take off their shoes, I bent and work over his feet. Finally, I don't Know how, but my dad's feet were beautiful, and I began to take, touch, smell, suck and ... over them, many times while he slept.
But take advantage of his deep dream to abuse of his feet, I became shy, withdrawn, complexed, silly and not confident. I knew I was different, in some way I was aware the violation of his physical integrity and to do this in the shadows. I felt embarrassed. I was fearful of being caught I think that is typical in many perverts, dangerous or not dangerous.
For years I had sexual fantasies in which the objects were the male feet. But was reduced until when I was in twenties. I met a warlock, he was my boss and I fell in love with him, I became insane desire, but it took me almost to suicide, including depression, pornography and shamelessness. When I confessed him what I felt, he only smiled, he was happy. The guy was married, but knew what was in my mind; I think he was attracted by some interest to me. Then he was away from me, when I was fired because my contract ended, over.
This made me look for an exit, although I had been an atheist I began seeking God. I remembered that I saw. The power of the sorcerer, for I thought they should have a superiour superior force behind him. He was able to discover hidden secrets in my mind and sometimes predict the future, in addition to moving objects with his mind. He was not a magician, but he was an important executive and business man. Also he hides something wrong with him. I had to look to God to restore my sanity in the process I found this:
Bible .... Romans 1: 18 to 32 (vers. 26) .
God's Wrath against Mankind
18The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness, 19since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. 20For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities-his eternal power and divine nature-have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.
21For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools 23and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles.
24Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. 25They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator-who is forever praised. Amen.
26Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. 27In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.
28Furthermore, since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind; to do what ought not to be done. 29They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, 30slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; 31they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. 32Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.
If you read, you are going to be surprised that someone was homosexual after he was a mature man, it is not usual, as you know usually the man is Gay since he was teen or before.
But what child can be blamed for this:...." For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools 23and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images...". I was not this when I was assault by the desire for feet.
Romans 1 describes this in the Bible, only happens to adults, and happened to your parents, grandparents, great-grandparents ... One of them was proud, arrogant, worships something and not God, and mistakes of our parents, we (sons) have to pay.
And this is clarified:
Exodus 20:5,6
5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand {generations} of those who love me and keep my commandments.
Exodus 34:7
7 maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation."
"God gave them" whom? What force or spirit to attack me, and I started to feel something weird with male feet when I or you were children....
Revelation 12:12 (New International Version)
12Therefore rejoice, you heavens, and you who dwell in them!
But woe to the earth and the sea, because the devil has gone down to you!
He is filled with fury, because he knows that his time is short."
Perhaps it was the devil, the spiritual force that is in the earth. The devil may have to make major disasters (wars, corruption, evil), but not only is the devil but the evil fallen angels, are too in the earth ... is the force behind the evil sorcerer and opposite, those set Angeles a thought in my mind, which affects my heart and emotions, because they had access to me for the sins of my parents, grandparents ... ...
Ephesians 6:11-13 (New International Version)
11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Most of the demons are not even in hell, but they are doing things in the mind that psychiatrists can not explain.
Who is Satan, who wants?
John 10:9-11 (New International Version)
9 I am (Jesus) the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved.[a] He will come in and go out, and find pasture. 10The thief (Satan) comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
11"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.
A spirit of evil was influencing my life since childhood, was planning to cancel my life, by reducing the attraction to shame, wanted to kill, destroy me, but God picked me up and He clean me, I never thought that I could have a family, children, be happy. Reach out to feel happy in an intimate relationship with a woman. It never could be met, but the Holy Spirit leads to a harmony that is incomprehensible, understandable.
I did: Just Look to Jesus and repent .... He is alive and his spirit is also in our World, but will cost you overcome evil, we can with the help of the Spirit is a daily struggle. ..... is a war not against men, it is against ourselves and against evil spirits, but you can do it, we need also a Christian Church, Prayer and Bible study daily
Start with to declare, this sentence will give you access to the spirit of God:
"LORD Jesus enters into my heart, forgive my sins, clean my soul, save me, Lord helps me to trust you with a faith as a child, in your Holy name I ask AMEN.
